Vulnerability

This week's assignment, we are asked to answer question related to Dr. Brown's TED Talk about Connection.

1. How would you answer, "Sometimes, I am afraid I am not ... enough."

I would have to say 'strong.' For the past three months,  I have been sick with an unknown GI problem. In the last week, I have come down with a debilitating sinus infection. It was so bad, I couldn't even go to the Dr.'s Office to be treated. I have become so reluctant of leaving the house because I am so afraid that I won't be strong enough to make it through. 

2. How do you define vulnerability?

I define vulnerability as a little crack in the foundation of oneself. One that was caused by an injury. One that, if not monitored, or repaired, can bring down the entire house of oneself.

3. Why do you struggle with vulnerability?

I think we all struggle with vulnerability for a similar reason. We become vulnerable because something hurt us. We are wired to avoid painful things. The classic example of the hot stove. You touch the hot stove, you feel pain, you pull your hand back and learn not to touch hot stoves anymore. We experience an event that hurts us. We then avoid doing the same thing that causes pain. Unlike a hot stove, we need to either do the things that make us vulnerable, or get past them to be able to live.

4. What did you tell yourself when faced with something you thought insurmountable?

I told myself that God would get me through it. He had brought me this far. If he brought me to it, he would bring me through it. Recently, this hasn't always quite been enough but, it has been something when there was nothing.